So it has been three weeks since my last blog post. I am so sorry; June has been a little bit busier than I thought. Work is consuming me and not in a good way. It has been making me actually sicker than I want to be. I only asked to work a certain amount of hours and they are working me more than what I want. More than the average part-time amount of work is. But that is the way of life and working in the United States: promises that are never kept or respected.
The one thing I did not realize that this month was my One-year Blog-versary. Because I’ve been so busy I am actually waiting until next month to do a giveaway. When I have more time to plan and promote it, I cannot believe that I did not realize my anniversary. I guess I enjoy blogging so much that I haven’t know that a year has gone by. Even though I still feel weird talking about it and letting friends and family know that I am blogging. Sometimes I feel ashamed of liking makeup and clothes and looking girly. As if I am supposed to look like I do not care about my looks.
I feel as a plus size women I am supposed to love myself psychically all the time and not want to try to change myself. Not want to have clear skin, wear too much makeup as skinny girls can do, and have spa days where a get the full facial package. Like I am not supposed to care about having the finer things in beauty because I am plus size. I feel like I have to look all natural because you are plus size. As of I have to look the certain way because I am such a big girl. You know, look as if I let myself go.
Like everyone else, I like to look in a flattering way on social media. Doesn’t mean I do not mind showing everyone what I look like without my makeup. But when it comes to my blog post and my main website, I choose to show myself with makeup on. Enhancing my beautiful features for everyone to see. Not to cover up any imperfections. I never really airbrush my photographs. I only just do color enhancement to create a mood. Unfortunately, my camera is not that good or advance to be able to do those extreme magazine photoshop touches. Personally, I do not need that for blogging or my Instagram page. Actually, Instagram can only handle a certain pixelate size and it is not that big so you do not need a $1,000 camera body to create beautiful photographs.
On my Instagram page, click here to follow, and my Insta-stories I have no problem showing myself without makeup. I mean, every week I have a no-makeup day and I want to show more of myself and open up more to you all. I work weekdays and when I work I am actually required to wear makeup. I also photograph myself for my blog post on the weekdays, too. Getting to photograph myself on the weekends is very difficult to do. That time is for me and my fiancé to be together and hang out. And I enjoy that with him. So I have the tenacity to photograph myself on the weekdays before or after work.
For my goal for my second year is to open up more to you all. Talk about my health, my beliefs, and my day to day life. I don’t know what you all see in me but I am not really relatable. I need to start coming out about myself and what I stand for. I am not a real personable person; I am quite blunt when I talk about stuff. Pretty much to sum up myself, I am an agonist, leftist-libertarian who hates societies that treat women like property and inferior to men. I hate men who treat women like trash, property and just sexual objects that are supposed to crank out babies for society. And any religion and society who promotes this behavior that women are supposed to listen to men and obey I dislike. I don’t want any culture in this world to exist like that. I do not want to be a part of that world, nor will I travel to any country and talk to any man that thinks this way. But I will talk more about this in a later post.
Please enjoy this post and these amazing summer clothes for now. My goal is to be more open to the world. Very little we hear and see all sides of the story because one side always lives in fear of the other because they do not want to argue and cause disturbance of the peace. Instead of respecting, listening to the other side, have an adult discussion without arguing, and backing up their beliefs up with logical, reasonable explanations and facts. Also, both sides are never willing to meet down the middle and change. How are you able to grow and become a better human being without being open and changing your point of view?
Love you all,
Valerie (A.K.A Jersey Girl)
In This Shoot
Off the Shoulder Floral Top by Torrid
Shorts by Torrid
Espadrilles by ASOS
Sunglasses by Torrid